From The Painter’s Heart

Since the age of twenty, I have been surviving last 
forty five years as an artist and novelist; In between 
I also had a brief stint in acting and directing 

So much of life, so many experiences… misery, pain, 
depression, joy, pleasure, excitement … finally a 
feeling of elation. 

Under the Trees     Artist : Magunta Dayakar

But, some emptiness inside as if something more I want from my life … what is it? Whenever I thought I have found my freedom, it would go away from me.

Then these words used to flash in me. “It’s always further than it looks. It’s always taller than it looks. And it’s always harder than it looks.” (the three rules of mountaineering)

How truthful they are! What next ?

Then I used to remember Russian-American Fantasy writer Vera Nazarian words…

“If you are faced with a mountain, you have several options. You can climb it and cross to the other side. You can go around it. You can dig under it. You can fly over it. You can blow it up. You can ignore it and pretend it’s not there. You can turn around and go back the way you came. Or you can stay on the mountain and make it your home.”

After recalling these words, I pushed myself to move towards my path. Now, walking on that path, I have been reminding myself that my life is …to stay on the mountain and make it my home.

At this moment I am recalling the words from the economist,author and Swedish diplomat Dag Hammarskjöld’s “Never measure the height of a mountain until you have reached the top. Then you will see how low it was.”

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